i just wish i had the time to fully articulate all of the thoughts i have that could actually construe as mattering

like i haven’t posted a genuinely personal #realtalk post in a while and i don’t know how i feel about it. i mean sure, that might be good to some degree via not having to reveal my entire life to the internet. but sometimes i felt like that helped. i do think it helps. that’s probably why my emotions and feelings just stay pent up and fester slowly into my ever-deepening mental illness.